Penny! *grabs her off you and cuddles and kisses her* Oh, sweetheart, where were you? Mummy was so worried about you. *squeezes her silly* Don't ever do that again, baby.
Mum, I've been hiding something from you. Mentally I'm a lot older than I look. A LOT. I've been pretending to be younger so you wouldn't worry about me.
I don't know how much older. I exposed myself to some life energy, but in a way that won't hurt me. It'll take a couple days, and I won't know how old I'll be till it takes hold. But believe me, mum, it is safe or I never would've done it. I remember Fred. I wouldn't do that to you.
Mum... I'm sorry. I didn't want to really, that's why I did this. Daf thought you'd want to say goodbye, or something. Give you a chance to get used to it.
I love you, sweetheart. I just don't understand some of it and it scares me. It would be easier if you were normal, but it doesn't make me love you any less.
I'm only human, sweetie. *hugs you again* You don't scare me, it scares me that something might happen to you that I can't foresee of understand or help you deal with. That's all.
Daf won't CARE, mum, he can see inside my head, I'll look just the same there afterward,
I came back before I changed for YOU, mum, because he thought you might need to be with me like this. I'm not going to pretend I'm anything else, but still, me being here like this is for you, mum. Just you. Not Dafydd.
It doesn't matter. *sighs and stands up* We'll stay home, just you and me. Maybe we can go through your room and sort out your clothes and toys... get it cleared out for redecorating.
*nods surreptitiously to big Dafydd, who has been frantically making the universal gesture for "I'm out of here" for the past five minutes* *picks you up again and sits you back on her lap*
*laughs a little* Yes, he is very cute. And human. I feel closer to him because he's human... just like I feel closer to you because you're a girl and because I gave birth to you. You're both very different children, but I love you both to death.
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Date: 2008-09-03 08:29 pm (UTC)Mum?
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Date: 2008-09-03 08:36 pm (UTC)*grabs her off you and cuddles and kisses her*
Oh, sweetheart, where were you? Mummy was so worried about you.
*squeezes her silly*
Don't ever do that again, baby.
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Date: 2008-09-04 03:50 am (UTC)*hugs you back hard*
Um, we have to talk.
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Date: 2008-09-04 04:31 am (UTC)*sits and puts you on her lap, kissing your head*
What do we need to talk about? Are you alright? You're not hurt, are you?
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Date: 2008-09-04 04:56 am (UTC)Mum, I've been hiding something from you. Mentally I'm a lot older than I look. A LOT. I've been pretending to be younger so you wouldn't worry about me.
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Date: 2008-09-04 05:10 am (UTC)How much older? Should I be worried about you? Are you going to... grow? Like Fred?
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Date: 2008-09-04 05:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-04 05:47 am (UTC)*hugs you tight*
Why did you run away? Why didn't you tell me?
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Date: 2008-09-04 08:27 pm (UTC)Plus, I... liked pretending it wasn't happening. For a while.
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Date: 2008-09-05 04:35 am (UTC)Well... we've still got a few days to keep pretending. If you want to.
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Date: 2008-09-05 05:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-05 05:35 am (UTC)*shifts you down to her knees and kisses your forehead*
Thank you for coming back.
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Date: 2008-09-05 05:52 am (UTC)I'm sorry, mum.
*doesn't let go*
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Date: 2008-09-05 05:59 am (UTC)It's okay, sweetie. It can't be helped, it's not your fault. You're not going anywhere, right?
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Date: 2008-09-05 06:17 am (UTC)You don't like all the Time Lord stuff, though, do you? You wish I was normal.
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Date: 2008-09-05 06:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-05 02:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-05 05:49 pm (UTC)*hugs you again*
You don't scare me, it scares me that something might happen to you that I can't foresee of understand or help you deal with. That's all.
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Date: 2008-09-05 11:18 pm (UTC)You probably would have been way more help.
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Date: 2008-09-06 05:42 am (UTC)So... is there anything you do want to do before you get big?
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Date: 2008-09-06 05:44 am (UTC)*shakes her head*
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Date: 2008-09-06 06:12 am (UTC)Okay. We should go to Ianto's, though, tomorrow maybe? Dafydd's going to miss you terribly, you should at least go say goodbye.
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Date: 2008-09-06 06:52 am (UTC)*pulls away*
He'll know it's still me, for heaven's sake. He'll understand.
God, I was right. Even on your last days ever with me as your baby, who do you worry about?
*gets off your lap*
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Date: 2008-09-06 07:01 am (UTC)What? I thought you didn't want to pre... what did I say, why are you angry with me?
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Date: 2008-09-06 02:47 pm (UTC)I came back before I changed for YOU, mum, because he thought you might need to be with me like this. I'm not going to pretend I'm anything else, but still, me being here like this is for you, mum. Just you. Not Dafydd.
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Date: 2008-09-06 05:54 pm (UTC)It doesn't matter.
*sighs and stands up*
We'll stay home, just you and me. Maybe we can go through your room and sort out your clothes and toys... get it cleared out for redecorating.
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Date: 2008-09-06 06:06 pm (UTC)Okay.
*blurts out*
Do you love him more than me?
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Date: 2008-09-06 06:18 pm (UTC)*picks you up again and sits you back on her lap*
No. Of course I don't. What makes you think that?
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Date: 2008-09-06 06:49 pm (UTC)He's just so... cheerful, and easy to get along with, and... cute.
And more human than me.
And you don't see him as often so it seems like it means more to you to be with him.
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Date: 2008-09-06 08:34 pm (UTC)Yes, he is very cute. And human. I feel closer to him because he's human... just like I feel closer to you because you're a girl and because I gave birth to you. You're both very different children, but I love you both to death.
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Date: 2008-09-07 12:15 am (UTC)You know, you're the only person in the world I can't read. I know exactly how everyone else feels about me, but not you. And you matter the most.
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Date: 2008-09-07 05:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-07 05:20 am (UTC)*looks very sad*
I'm not your baby. Not anymore.
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Date: 2008-09-07 05:39 am (UTC)You'll always be my baby. Growing up doesn't change that.
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Date: 2008-09-07 05:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-07 05:49 am (UTC)Everything's going to be alright, munchkin. Mummy's here.
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Date: 2008-09-07 05:59 am (UTC)*cries herself to exhaustion on you and falls asleep*
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Date: 2008-09-07 06:07 am (UTC)*goes back to the front room and wanders around, tidying up a bit*
*sighs, sits down and watches some tv*
*falls asleep on the sofa*