No, you don't. What would little Penny do if you died? She'd be half an orphan. And I'd miss you. A lot. So would Rose, and lots of other people. You're a lovely person.
You're a wonderful human being. At least my second favourite one ever, and I've met a lot of people. You're all nice and caring and usually very polite.
I sexually assaulted an Ood. I had sex with Rose, then left her to her own devices and walked off. I ordered Giac to come and see me, let him take me up the arse, then told him to fuck off. I tried to seduce David... *goes slightly red*
I had a bitchfight with Giac's new boytoy whom I'd never even met. And I told your entire family that I enjoy anal sex. I thought they were all laughing at me behind my back. I...
I tried to apologise to you! You evil, vile thing. I felt sorry for what I'd done to you. I...
*sobs* I am sorry for what I did to you.
But how could you? *slaps you again* A room full of people? COMPLETE FUCKING STRANGERS!??! Calling me tart, a predator, telling people I've never even MET that I take it up the arse?
*teary* I didn't think even you could stoop that fucking low. *spits at your feet*
I spoke to my lover, and the people who happened to be with her at the time I found her, right after you slapped my face and told me to leave you, while still in an agitated state. I did not go around telling anyone else. I haven't even told Lynda.
I called you tart because I was upset. I called you predator because I was your prey.
From your reaction, am I to assume that you consider me telling people about your attempted sexual assault upon me, to be more of a sin than the attempted assault itself?
*teary* I am sorry for what I did to you, it was an unforgivable thing to do, and it will haunt me for the rest of my days. I tried to apologise to you, so don't take that fucking patronising tone with me.
*cries* You've had your revenge, I hope it made you feel better.
All these people who love and respect you regardless... and yet you felt so worthless and destroyed?
*slowly, awkwardly reaches an arm around your shoulder*
You were cruel... But if there's one bit of good that's come out of what you did to me... it's that I got to feel inside myself how much people can change.
*suddenly, almost painfully, hugs you*
Don't be that creature again. You don't have to be...
She's wrong, you know, my love. She thinks she treated everyone the same... only if the others said no, and she tried to force them regardless. *quiet tear*
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:04 am (UTC)Reinette? It's me. Can I come in?
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:06 am (UTC)Whatever.
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:08 am (UTC)*sits on the bed*
I told Lynda you weren't feeling very well.
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 08:15 am (UTC)There might have been something in the sherry. Don't worry about it.
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 08:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 08:42 am (UTC)I'm so sorry. I can't do anything right.
Everything I touch turns to utter shit.
I just want to die.
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:46 am (UTC)No, you don't. What would little Penny do if you died? She'd be half an orphan. And I'd miss you. A lot. So would Rose, and lots of other people. You're a lovely person.
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:51 am (UTC)*sobs*
I want to be. I'm trying.
*looks at you*
I'm sorry. I didn't mean to slap you. Or embarrass you. I...
*sobs*
I'm so sorry.
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Date: 2006-10-10 09:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 09:03 am (UTC)I'm an evil, vicious whore.
*curls up on the bed*
*sobs*
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Date: 2006-10-10 09:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 09:08 am (UTC)No. I say I am. I've done some awful, abhorrent things, and I deserve everything I get.
You're better off without me.
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Date: 2006-10-10 09:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 09:41 am (UTC)*goes slightly red*
I had a bitchfight with Giac's new boytoy whom I'd never even met. And I told your entire family that I enjoy anal sex. I thought they were all laughing at me behind my back. I...
*sobs*
I want to die.
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Date: 2006-10-10 09:46 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 09:54 am (UTC)Ood. Rose. Giac. David. Boytoy. Anal.
Which part are you asking me about?
*sobs*
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Date: 2006-10-10 10:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 10:05 am (UTC)Yes. In the past few days.
*cries*
Why?
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Date: 2006-10-10 10:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 10:22 am (UTC)*sobs*
I'm mentioning it now.
I tried to tell you the other day, but you were in the library scribbling away, and you seemed really...
focussed on something.
I didn't want to disturb you.
I'm sorry.
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Date: 2006-10-10 10:25 am (UTC)I'm sure it's just grief making you do weird things.
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Date: 2006-10-10 10:32 am (UTC)Probably.
I'm still sorry. I've been really...
...stupid.
I still need to apologise to Rose and Giac for being so callous.
I don't want to be like that anymore.
*sighs*
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Date: 2006-10-10 10:37 am (UTC)They'll understand. You've been through a lot lately.
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Date: 2006-10-10 10:39 am (UTC)There are some things I need to do.
*smiles*
Thank you for understanding.
*gets up*
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:21 pm (UTC)You'll be fine.
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:16 am (UTC)Madame, I am waiting outside your door until you choose to tell me why you assaulted me. Again.
I will continue to wait here.
I am extremely patient.
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:22 am (UTC)I tried to apologise to you! You evil, vile thing. I felt sorry for what I'd done to you. I...
*sobs*
I am sorry for what I did to you.
But how could you?
*slaps you again*
A room full of people? COMPLETE FUCKING STRANGERS!??! Calling me tart, a predator, telling people I've never even MET that I take it up the arse?
*teary*
I didn't think even you could stoop that fucking low.
*spits at your feet*
*slams door in your face*
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 08:33 am (UTC)*speaks levelly*
I spoke to my lover, and the people who happened to be with her at the time I found her, right after you slapped my face and told me to leave you, while still in an agitated state. I did not go around telling anyone else. I haven't even told Lynda.
I called you tart because I was upset. I called you predator because I was your prey.
From your reaction, am I to assume that you consider me telling people about your attempted sexual assault upon me, to be more of a sin than the attempted assault itself?
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:41 am (UTC)*teary*
I am sorry for what I did to you, it was an unforgivable thing to do, and it will haunt me for the rest of my days. I tried to apologise to you, so don't take that fucking patronising tone with me.
*cries*
You've had your revenge, I hope it made you feel better.
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Date: 2006-10-10 08:55 am (UTC)...no it doesn't.
*shakier*
It wasn't revenge, it wasn't calculated. It was hysterical, giddy disbelief at what I had just survived...
And I had to tell Teresa because Giac is still her life, and when Barty heard me tell her it turned out that he...
...he didn't know...
*composure cracking, crumpling against the door*
...milady I thought you had turned into a monster, and I had to warn him and I still don't know why!...
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Date: 2006-10-10 09:01 am (UTC)Why what?
no subject
Date: 2006-10-10 09:06 am (UTC)...why did I deserve it?
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Date: 2006-10-10 09:18 am (UTC)I just took what I could get.
You didn't deserve it any more than anyone else. I asked Rose, and Giac, the Doctor, I even tried to seduce my best friend.
I treated everyone the same. I'm not proud of myself. I was a bitch. I am a bitch. I...
*pauses*
*sobs*
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Date: 2006-10-10 09:41 am (UTC)...Madame, you could have a King.
All these people who love and respect you regardless... and yet you felt so worthless and destroyed?
*slowly, awkwardly reaches an arm around your shoulder*
You were cruel... But if there's one bit of good that's come out of what you did to me... it's that I got to feel inside myself how much people can change.
*suddenly, almost painfully, hugs you*
Don't be that creature again. You don't have to be...
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Date: 2006-10-10 09:52 am (UTC)*sobs*
I'm trying. I really am, I'm trying so hard. I...
*looks at you*
I'm sorry.
*closes door*
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Date: 2006-10-10 10:01 am (UTC)I'm still very patient, madame.
*swallows, turns, walks away with Bellino*
But not absolutely.
She's wrong, you know, my love. She thinks she treated everyone the same... only if the others said no, and she tried to force them regardless. *quiet tear*
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Date: 2006-10-10 02:12 pm (UTC)Note pushed under door
Date: 2006-10-10 10:46 am (UTC)Note sent back
Date: 2006-10-10 11:11 am (UTC)Re: Note sent back
Date: 2006-10-10 12:53 pm (UTC)Re: Note sent back
Date: 2006-10-10 01:10 pm (UTC)Vous êtes trop doux, mon roix. Je vous aime.