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Aug. 27th, 2006 12:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mme_depompadourMy dearest angel,
I've been through a lot in these past few weeks. You abandoned me in childbirth and then threatened to tamper with our children's DNA. You asked me for my hand in marriage, and when I accepted, you proceeded to do everything in your power to change my mind, postpone it, or call it off alltogether. I kept a vow of abstinence for you, I married you even when you'd cancelled the wedding and made me cry five minutes beforehand. Of course that makes me sad. But it would be unfair of me to expect you to understand that. Being sad is just a normal part of human life. It doesn't mean I don't love you, or that I am going to leave. I do love you, and I want us to be a family.
I thought maybe I could talk to someone about my situation. Someone I cared about who would listen, and maybe make me less sad. But that went disastrously wrong. I chose the wrong person to seek comfort from and ended up confusing myself and them in the process. I didn't mean to do that. I realise now I would have been better off talking to a total stranger, as opposed to a man I have known for a very long time, and for whom I have very strong feelings. That was foolish of me, and I'm sorry.
I've been confused lately. I actually thought about leaving you. And, apart from realising that I actually have nowhere to go if I did, I also realised I was just entertaining a foolish fantasy that my life would be better or I would be happier elsewhere and away from you and your emotional naivety. But that's just not true. No one loves me like you do, even in your own silly alien way. And I love you. And I want us to be happy.
I'm so sorry.
Please don't leave me. I don't think I could bear it.
I love you.
Your loving wife,
Reinette.
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Date: 2006-08-27 07:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-27 07:28 pm (UTC)I'm sorry.
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Date: 2006-08-27 07:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-27 07:33 pm (UTC)It just seems like you don't sometimes. And sometimes it feels like you forget that I do.
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Date: 2006-08-27 08:25 pm (UTC)I never forget your feelings. They confuse me
oftensometimes, but I always remember that you have them.You've been so quiet and unusual and you wouldn't talk to me and I wondered if you wanted to leave me.
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Date: 2006-08-27 08:34 pm (UTC)I did. I did want to leave you. But I was just...confused.
I was foolish to think that anyone could love me like you do. I forget how much you love me sometimes.
I don't deserve you.
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Date: 2006-08-27 08:42 pm (UTC)You do deserve me. You deserve everyone. All of them. All at once. *kiss*
My love for you is ticking clock.
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Date: 2006-08-27 09:17 pm (UTC)because of a lot of things.
I don't want everyone all at once. I just want to be happy with someone who loves me.
I love you.
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Date: 2006-08-27 09:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-27 09:36 pm (UTC)It's just that sometimes...
there can be feelings involved. I...
I'm a bit scared of getting emotionally involved, maybe without even realising it. That...
that would be wrong.
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Date: 2006-08-27 09:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-27 09:51 pm (UTC)*emo*
I don't know anymore.
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Date: 2006-08-27 08:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-27 08:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-27 08:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-27 08:31 pm (UTC)You're so small, are you? Yes you are.
*strokes wee baby face*
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Date: 2006-08-27 08:33 pm (UTC)*nuzzles your shoulder*
*grabs your tie*
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Date: 2006-08-27 08:35 pm (UTC)*wipes baby's face*
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Date: 2006-08-27 08:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-27 08:43 pm (UTC)Can you try for a bit of dignity?
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Date: 2006-08-27 08:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-27 08:46 pm (UTC)Shush. Shush, baby.
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Date: 2006-08-27 08:47 pm (UTC)*stops crying*
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Date: 2006-08-27 08:49 pm (UTC)Hello Fre-... Pe-... little baby. You're my favourite one.
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