I'm happy.
Aug. 26th, 2006 02:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mme_depompadour*cries*
*sniffs*
*scrubs floor*
*unnecessarily irons Doctor's man pants*
*alphabetises sock drawer*
*deep breath*
I'm fine.
*sniffs*
*scrubs floor*
*unnecessarily irons Doctor's man pants*
*alphabetises sock drawer*
*deep breath*
I'm fine.
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Date: 2006-08-26 02:43 pm (UTC)Reinette!
For heaven's sake, get it off your chest!
A blind man could see there was somehthing wrong!
What is it?
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Date: 2006-08-26 03:05 pm (UTC)I just married the man I love.
What on earth could be wrong?
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Date: 2006-08-26 03:09 pm (UTC)I can hear it in your voice. Why don't you want to get it off your chest?
Please tell me. We're family now.
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Date: 2006-08-26 03:14 pm (UTC)I can't tell you.
I can't tell anyone.
It's not important.
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Date: 2006-08-26 03:18 pm (UTC)And we can all see it, darling.
I hate to see someone I love, such a good, sweet, giving, wonderful person, so miserable.
It is important, and you can tell me.
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Date: 2006-08-26 03:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-26 03:25 pm (UTC)you can tell me. you know that right?
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Date: 2006-08-26 03:36 pm (UTC)I'm a bad person.
My husband, amongst other people, habitually refers to me as a whore, and he probably has a point.
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Date: 2006-08-26 03:42 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-26 04:38 pm (UTC)*sobs*
I am. I'm a bad person. And I can't even tell you why.
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Date: 2006-08-26 06:50 pm (UTC)please...
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Date: 2006-08-26 07:08 pm (UTC)You worship the ground he walks on, and he picked me over you.
And I don't even have the common decency to be happy about it. That's not fair of me, and I'm sorry.
*emo tear*
You think I don't want to humanify him? You think I don't want to make him be and act and feel more like a normal human man? And make my life with him a whole lot easier? That's why he picked me, Rose, I've never asked, I've never made that demand. That's not how I was brought up.
I'm not a whore, Rose, I just have a great deal of experience in pleasing others and ignoring my own needs. That's just what I do. I'm good at it. And sometimes it makes me sad, or it makes me do things I don't want to do. Or not do things I do want to do.
And right now is one of those times when it's made me sad. I'll get over it, and I'll get on with life. And everyone will be happy again. That's all that matters.
*hugs*
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Date: 2006-08-26 07:13 pm (UTC)i don't know what to say. your life is different now. you're not the same woman you used to be. you're a mother, and a wife. and you deserve to be happy.
is
is it me being around, that's making you unhappy?
because if it is then
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Date: 2006-08-26 07:16 pm (UTC)No! Of course it's not you, sweetie.
*kiss*
It's nothing to with you. I'm glad you're here.
It's nothing. It's not important.
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Date: 2006-08-26 08:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-26 08:59 pm (UTC)You didn't make it any worse than it already was, trust me.
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Date: 2006-08-26 09:13 pm (UTC)If it helps, you're not a whore, either. You're an intelligent, talented, and beautiful person, and that's how you're remembered.
I've done my historical research on this one.Oh, bollocks, I think I screwed that one up. You might like to forget that.
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Date: 2006-08-26 09:24 pm (UTC)*smiles back*
I travel with a Time Lord. I'm well aware of the fleeting nature of human existence *winks*
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Date: 2006-08-26 09:31 pm (UTC)I wonder how that's going to change everything? *thinks*Some would call you exceptionally lucky to have that chance. But you're not so happy with it, are you?
If I'm not being too nosy, and feel free to ignore me - is it just that he's so inhuman?
Maybe being a little bit selfish for once in your caring life would be what you need?
I hope that didn't sound rude. It wasn't meant to.
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Date: 2006-08-26 09:41 pm (UTC)You're not being rude.
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Date: 2006-08-26 09:43 pm (UTC)Imagine I can give you whatever you want. Everything and anything.
What do you want, Reinette?
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Date: 2006-08-26 09:48 pm (UTC)I want to be happy.
But I don't want to hurt anyone.
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Date: 2006-08-26 09:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-26 10:33 pm (UTC)If...
If there were someone else...
not quite so alien, someone I loved...
who also loved me back...
I suppose that would make me very happy indeed.
But there isn't anyone. So it's a moot point, I guess.
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Date: 2006-08-26 10:47 pm (UTC)I can see things a bit more clearly now.
Thank you.
*smiles*
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Date: 2006-08-26 10:51 pm (UTC)*strained smile*
Oh, god.
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Date: 2006-08-26 10:56 pm (UTC)Well, thank you anyway.
Honestly, I can be so silly sometimes.
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Date: 2006-08-26 11:22 pm (UTC)*rubs nose and grins bashfully*
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Date: 2006-08-26 10:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-26 10:22 pm (UTC)*kiss*
You shouldn't worry about me so much.
*smiles*
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Date: 2006-08-26 10:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-26 10:37 pm (UTC)I know you don't. I've been acting silly, and I'm sorry.
*kiss*
Forgive me?
*smiles*
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Date: 2006-08-26 10:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-26 10:41 pm (UTC)*kiss*
Truly, I am.
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Date: 2006-08-26 10:45 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-26 10:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-26 10:53 pm (UTC)Your lies make me sad.
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Date: 2006-08-26 11:02 pm (UTC)*handporns*
I'm not lying. I am fine.
*smiles*
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Date: 2006-08-26 11:03 pm (UTC)*emo*
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Date: 2006-08-26 11:15 pm (UTC)I really am fine.
I wasn't, but now I am.
*strokes your face*
*smiles*
*kiss*
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Date: 2006-08-26 11:52 pm (UTC)If there's something making you sad, you should tell me what it is. I can't be happy if you're not.
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Date: 2006-08-27 07:02 am (UTC)There's nothing making me sad. Not anymore.
I love you.
*kisses harder*
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Date: 2006-08-27 07:21 am (UTC)What will happen to our children if you leave me?
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Date: 2006-08-27 07:28 am (UTC)I could never leave you.
What a silly question, my love. I'm not going anywhere.
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Date: 2006-08-27 07:30 am (UTC)Do you want me to write you a poem?
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Date: 2006-08-27 07:42 am (UTC)If you like. You don't have to.
*smiles*
Whatever would make you happy.
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Date: 2006-08-27 07:55 am (UTC)*hands it to you*
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Date: 2006-08-27 10:44 am (UTC)I've written you one, too.
*gives*